Jayce clings to him like Viktor is the only raft in an endless restless sea. The one good thing that has happened in so long. He couldn't do anything right for a long time now, but he saved Viktor. That means everything to him. Viktor feels different against his skin, he's not made of any himself, and he did see how different he looked, but it's just not something he can cope with yet. All he wants to feel is this relief because it means he didn't lose the person who matters most to him. The only one he's ever loved, something incredibly obvious to him now on the other side of the near-death experience.
He would probably keep holding Viktor forever if he didn't slump away and Jayce allows it because he knows Viktor doesn't like physical contact as much as he does. He's always been warm and close and took advantage of touching Viktor whenever he was allowed. Just gestures of a hand on his shoulder or his back, trying to tell him with gestures that he cared, when precise words failed him.
"No. No, the Hexcore, it saved you." Viktor didn't have to die. He did find the answer through the Hexcore like they had both hoped. Jayce wasn't there enough for him toward the end there, so he could make up for it now, he could give Viktor everything he deserved. It was all going to change now. "I took as many notes as I could for when you came back." Because Jayce had to believe that he would, he was too panicked otherwise. "I found your notes on your leg so I tried to thread the two together. Obviously we'll know better now that you're awake."
Viktor can now say out loud how he feels and what the Hexcore did and they can take all the notes and put them together. A project, just for the two of them, like it used to be. He feels a pulse of adrenaline as he talks, almost a streak of hysteria in it, due to being excited this worked out. It's been trauma after trauma lately, he needs this.
"I know I didn't do what I promised but Viktor, I couldn't. Half of the council is dead, I saw you there and I ... couldn't." Jayce was in the moment and he wasn't thinking, he wasn't capable of rationality. He lost his mind entirely and now it seems like maybe it was the right thing in the end. He doesn't know what's right or wrong anymore. He's been mixing them all up these days.
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Date: 2024-12-20 11:46 pm (UTC)He would probably keep holding Viktor forever if he didn't slump away and Jayce allows it because he knows Viktor doesn't like physical contact as much as he does. He's always been warm and close and took advantage of touching Viktor whenever he was allowed. Just gestures of a hand on his shoulder or his back, trying to tell him with gestures that he cared, when precise words failed him.
"No. No, the Hexcore, it saved you." Viktor didn't have to die. He did find the answer through the Hexcore like they had both hoped. Jayce wasn't there enough for him toward the end there, so he could make up for it now, he could give Viktor everything he deserved. It was all going to change now. "I took as many notes as I could for when you came back." Because Jayce had to believe that he would, he was too panicked otherwise. "I found your notes on your leg so I tried to thread the two together. Obviously we'll know better now that you're awake."
Viktor can now say out loud how he feels and what the Hexcore did and they can take all the notes and put them together. A project, just for the two of them, like it used to be. He feels a pulse of adrenaline as he talks, almost a streak of hysteria in it, due to being excited this worked out. It's been trauma after trauma lately, he needs this.
"I know I didn't do what I promised but Viktor, I couldn't. Half of the council is dead, I saw you there and I ... couldn't." Jayce was in the moment and he wasn't thinking, he wasn't capable of rationality. He lost his mind entirely and now it seems like maybe it was the right thing in the end. He doesn't know what's right or wrong anymore. He's been mixing them all up these days.